Ya know when I first graduated college I had a real difficult time adjusting. While all of my roommates were planning their weddings or were only a year away from doing so, I was doing exactly what I didn't want to do. While in my head I had always imagined I would be doing what they were, instead I would be back home to live with my parents and would be taking a job in St. Louis. My life plans have not gone the way I planned them, but I think that's a good thing because God knows what He's doing. Now, 2 1/2 years after graduating college (boy am I feeling old) another stage of life is happening with my friends...babies. Three of the girls from my Bible study are pregnant. I feel like that's when you can really say you're a grown-up: married with children.
Last time around I easily fell into envy and depression. This time I'm praying that I can simply feel just glad for them and hopeful in the future that God has laid out specifically for me. I feel so out of control with my future, having no real direction and seeing no specific plan. That used to, well let's be honest, probably will soon again scare me. But today, today I'm going to rejoice in the mystery of the workings of my Savior. He knows what He's doing.
You are the potter and I am the clay.
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